Change 。。。

Went out with friends yesterday, the very first time in years, there were so many of them. It's a brand new concept of "hanging out" to me for it is usually 1 to 1 hang out for me and I don't see the point of hanging out with a friend or with friends. This experience became so special for it has changed my way of thinking.

  For too long I've been wrapping myself up using thorns and spikes, metal and silver for self protection. Since three,  grade two, and then form two and then junior two. Different kinds of wards and spells were cast in order to make secure of the inner most being. For once I thought that maybe it is already too complicated and late to undo all these spells.

  Not until I met these friends. They are really ball suckers and peanut crusher but they indeed are the very first bunch of idiot who defrosted the icy wall. The moistful wind of the great ocean and the laughter of the great mountain shattered it completely.
 

   Yesterday someone cried after talking about a thing named" Promises ". Maybe it was too cruel to say it out but it is the truth for we like to give and they love to have it. Maybe I shouldn't have been so straight but going round and round in circles can never solve the question. The tears were shocking as well as inspiring. It conjoured an acidic cloud inside of me. Felt sorry anyway.


  More things to say but those are secrects so they remain in the protection of the still complicated oblivion waiting for one day to come when things are different. Maybe somedays will come.