2011 儿童诗班积极传递会

2011 年最后一次演出

2011/12/30

八打灵新市堂卫理公会

巴生恩友堂卫理工会

我咯~

又是我咯~

  第一次用Grand Piano 伴奏~ 爽！

  话说我们学校的合唱团真的应该检讨了，儿童诗班也唱得比他们好。。。

  希望明年会顺顺利利~ 能更上一层楼~

  2011年就要完了，没啥好写的，就继续努力啦~



美中不足的圣诞夜。。。

  今年的圣诞节，还可以算有意义，跟一个朋友去另一个不认识的朋友家，简单地说，去吃。

  去到就有人拿啤酒来，自然地就开始喝了。喝着喝着就唱几首圣诞歌，就开始进餐。吃着吃着就开始吹水。吹着吹着就回了，接着去打半夜机，直到凌晨三点。

  说实在奇怪，一整天下来最开心的竟是打机的时候。在这样一个温馨美丽的节日里，做得最开心的是竟是打机。

  妈妈在家，本来说有去聚会，之后又不去了。可我，就是不想呆在家。何况早上才屌过来。

  重要的时刻、节日和开心的时光，“家人”应该是不可或缺的东西。可这“家人”的定义却非常复杂。“家人”，基本上指具有同一系谱起源的实体，不论系谱起源是透过生物，历史或文化来继嗣。人类学上，“家人”同时包括由继嗣和婚姻而彼此有关系的人。而生物学上，“家人”指称血统和交配。而在心理上，“家人”的定义就模糊了。

  重要的时刻、节日和开心的时光，最想一起度过的人，就是“家人”。在某一方面来说，“家人”的身份是与生俱来的，而另一方面来说，那是必须去争取或赢得的。

  

  这漫长的十八年里，过过最开心的圣诞，应该就是去年的了。

  那两天一夜。

  话说拿个筛子滤一滤，还是有一些值得纪念的事。

  首先有的第一张圣诞照片，虽然只是一个人的。

  接下来有来自遥远地方的祝福，虽然只是短短几个字。

  

  最后是第一次吃火鸡，还有一大堆不知名的不知是法国菜还是意大利菜。那火鸡腿真他妈的大。

宝贝，

  今年的圣诞着实不怎么样，希望以后的圣诞，我们能一起过，好吗？

Since 17 Dec 2008 。。。

Some say love, it is a river that drowns the tender ring 。。。


Some say love, it is a razor that leaves your soul to bleed 。。。


Some say love, it is a hunger an endless aching need 。。。

I say love, it is a flower and you it's only seed 。。。

  Since 17 Dec 2008, and now 17 Dec 2011. 

  I never truly understand  the meaning of love for the past three years, because it was still there. I never think of treasuring it, because it was still there. I never hold tight to it, because I thought I have already holding very tight.

  For the past three years I have been loving the very same person, and I thought that I would love her forever just like what we all know in those fairy tails, the prince and the princess lived together forever after. But the fact is, I don't. Thing changes slowly, so that we won't realize it. It has always been too late when we realized that something was wrong. 

  I've always been wondering when things started to change. And I find that it was far long before everything happened. Everything starts with a simple thought, then a saying,  then a thinking, and at last I act it out.

 With too much pain and loss, heart broken, dream waked, beloved taken away, there seemed to be no way to go. So starts the thought, why don't I get another one?

  And so step by step everything happened.

  Love, is something that we don't own,and we don't earn. 

  Love is something that we don't gain it by works we've made and we don't lost it because of something we did.

  Love is something that we don't recognize it when we have but we cry for it when we lost it.

  Love is something that leaves watermarks in our heart, other than scars which come with pain.

  Finally, Love is something that touches, silences and opens the heart of every living things.

  We shouldn't live only for Love, but we should live with and together with Love, for it enrich and fills our live with colours and feelings. Never giving up loving someone or stop loving anyone. We hurt and we get hurt and so we grow.

When the night has been too lonely and the road has been too long,

And you think that love is only for the lucky and the strong,

Just remember in the winter far beneath the bitter snows,

Lies the seed that with the sun's love,

In the spring becomes the rose.

  Good bye to my love, to She that I have loved for times.

  Farewell and be good.

Dream 。。。

I dreamed a dream which I will never want to dream of 。。。

Day light has started to fade away 。。。

And so darkness filled my heart 。。。

When smoke bomb was released 。。。

Acid rain came 。。。

The rain was cold 。。。

It corroded their body 。。。 

Everything seemed to be fine before the corrosion went deep inside 。。。

Injuries everywhere 。。。

None stop bleeding 。。。

Purulent everywhere 。。。

Pain came with every of their single little movement 。。。

I was there 。。。

And I was laughing at them 。。。

For the foolishness 。。。

  At this very holiday of 18 years old I learn many new things, things that cannot be taught by others. Things that are forbidden to speak of.

Why would man hire prostitute.

How is it like to train "pets".

You are already a chick when you act like one.

How easy can cheating happen.

How easy it is to purposely make it happen.

  A few words, a conversation, a message, a smile, a blink of the eye.

Let us enjoy what came to us with a joyful heart 。。。

Not much fool are left in this world 。。。

But there are 。。。

And they are here 。。

Now 。。。

In our everyday life 。。。

  

Lust and Body 。。。

A relationship was build up by many elements 。。。

When time goes by 。。。

 Ratio of each elements will change 。。。

When the balance between elements is interrupted 。。。 

When everything come to that line 。。。

That everything are only about lust and feelings 。。。

People will begin to change 。。。

In and out 。。。

For a relationship 。。。

When it came to that line  。。。

It either dies immediately or fade away slowly 。。。

Unnoticeable 。。。

But 。。。

What if 。。。

In the very beginning 。。。

The relationship was just based on lust and feelings 。。。

And everything are only about lust and feelings 。。。

Will it grow dramatically ?

Will it stand across that line ?

People often says that we shouldn't only look onto the flesh 。。。

We should also look into the heart of others 。。。

We should know one another through the heart 。。。

But sometimes the heart is just not coming out 。。。

Or we say that It just doesn't want to come out 。。。

Requiem For A Dream

  刚看完了这套电影，感触颇深。人的堕落，总是在不知不觉间，也总都在一瞬间察觉，但却已经太迟了。然后，带着无奈与绝望的心情，接受，继续堕落。纵使知道自己已经堕落到什么样子了。

  电影中，故事一步一步的带着主角们一步一步地往下陷，堕入泥潭。破碎家庭，禁果，性爱，烟酒，毒品。主角们能做的，也只是随着情节的指引，慢慢地往下走。天台，同居，贩毒，卖淫，强奸，被捕，疯。回头？翻身？这是笑话吗？

  人们时常鄙视，甚至是唾弃堕落的人，人们称他们为“自甘堕落”、“胸无大志”。但其实很多时候，堕落的人并不知道如何能停止继续堕落。就算是知道的，也不知道应该如何停止。堕落的人，最可悲的不是堕落了，而是无法停止继续堕落。

  大人们常说，要自强不息，奋斗到底，可大人们却没说，当一个人的身、心、灵都空虚匮乏，疲惫不堪的时候，如何能自强不息，如何能继续奋斗到底。能自强，因心不空虚。能奋斗，因身不匮乏。灵，象征着目标，带领着生命的方向。

  抛开对于异性的遐想，身为一个男生，电影中的女主角卖淫的场景最令人印象深刻。一次一次的卖淫，一开始，其实本身并不愿意，但为了钱，为了毒瘾，就这样开始了第一次的被动式做爱高潮，然后第二次口交前戏，第三次的派对大杂烩。一次一次，一步一步，一层一层，慢慢地，越陷越深。最让人印象深刻的还是女主角最后一幕时的表情，无奈、无助，能做什么吗？什么都不能。不满足了面前这班男人，就什么都得不到。任人怎么脱，怎么命令，怎么干。什么姿势，什么服务。“吞下去！吞下去！吞下去！”

  对于没真正堕落过的人来说，堕落一词或许很唯美，很让人羡慕，其实不然。堕落的人，到最后其实都不停的问着自己：“我到底怎么了？”不知不觉的，不知从什么时候开始，就一直是这样了。想改变吗？当然。可没办法。

堕落的人，

是坠落的陨石，

在大气层中受尽摩擦，

一点儿一点儿地燃烧殆尽。

它伸出火焰般的触手，

想抓住点什么，

但什么也没抓到，

什么也抓不到。

触手碰着了空气，

消失得更快了。

越坠越快，

陨石迅速变小了。

“砰”

结束了。

  回顾着自己许多不为人知的过去，这部电影真让我感同身受。永远没有自甘的堕落，也永远没有空无点痣的胸膛，只有不小心，不经意间，不知不觉间，放下了的矜持与尊严。我们都是人，都会犯错，都曾堕落。

你堕落过了吗？

The passed 2011

 It's now the month of December, after so many events and problems, after lying in the abyss of oblivion for quite a few days, I finally have the mood to think about what actually happened throughout this year.

  This year, many had died, by the meaning of "had" they are now alive again. But of course, their life is different now. A total of seven. Oh god, why is it seven every year? Can't we just get rid of the Seven Sins topic? 

Gluttony,

Sloth,

Envy,

Pride,

Lust,

Greed,

Wrath. 

  The old Sins has passed, few survived the crush, some did not.Those new comers are not qualified at all.  They are just jokes, except for some of them. Some of them are really memorable. Let's make it this way,  if we steal lives from others in order to live, some of them make a super long life spam like Digi SUPER Long Life did but some of them didn't make it more than a day. It's not about time but the quality of life.

  Future, is in pure darkness. No one will ever know what will happen in the future. In another way, anything can happen in the future. I wish to dwell in the skies of the seven seas, I wish to be embraced by the waters of the ocean and I wish to dive deep into the oceanic trench face up to see the stars in the sky. But who knows? Whether I will be dead. Tomorrow? Next week? Months later? Or never?

  Throughout the year 2011, what I did was having fun studying. Sounds weird. I am not really studying nor having fun. It's very difficult to live in a society where we don't posses the same concept of "living". It's like drinking soda when you are thirsty and eating when you are already full.

  In my lovely choir, The Great Confucian Private Secondary School Choir! It's not good to criticize others or to gossip about others, 

BUT THEY REALLY SUCKS!

Sucks not to their insability, 

Sucks not to their low self consciousness,

Sucks are to their not motivated for everything.

  They are noobs, so what? Get on practice and one day they will be the best, but none of them did. What can I say? Waiting to be dismissed? Perhaps.

How can one ever stand up if he doesn't even willing to sit down?

  And so the year 2011 passed. I am now 18 years old. I am still studying. I am still briefing. I am still alive. I am still here. Nothing special. Just a little bit older, taller, thinner, exhausted and mature. After all year long of bumping boobs, it's time to settle down and have some peace. Romantic encounters may still come but for God's sake not so often and not so many! It's fun to have but it's very tiring to control and maintain. 

  It's time to have breakfast. It's 12:54 p.m now. I am having my breakfast. Oh, interesting. Make wish that the year 2012 will be more interesting and fun! 

Meanwhile meaningful.

记忆的漩涡 。。。

风，吹啊吹啊 。。。

那风筝线断了 。。。



其实它为什么断了 。。。

任谁了也不曾明白过 。。。


这世上有太多的事 。。。

到最后都只有天知道 。。。



风太大了 。。。

扯断了那线 。。。


线上无数的结 。。。

搞得那线再经不起折腾了 。。。


纠缠不清的线 。。。

还有其他的线 。。。

我蹭你 。。。

你蹭我 。。。



那画面 。。。

还真纠缠不清 。。。


彩带的影子 。。。

在暴风雨的夜里 。。。

依然跳动着 。。。



透过百叶窗的框架 。。。

望着那还在雨中飘渺无依的她的轮廓 。。。

还真觉得可惜 。。。



但任谁都清楚 。。。

那线已经断了 。。。

Answer 。。。

So 。。。

It turns up to be 。。。

I am nothing but nothing 。。。

Just like a prison with no date of release 。。。

You won't know when  is that day 。。。

That someone will come and free you from your miserable life 。。。

感觉。。。

今天 。。。


吃醋嘛 。。。

没怎样 。。。


不爽嘛 。。。

也没怎样 。。。


多了个人 。。。

没什么大不了 。。。


不拖手嘛 。。。

那就算了 。。。

以后有的是机会 。。。



可是有那么一句话 。。。

怎么听都是那样痛 。。。

友达 。。。

说难听点。。。

两边通吃。。。

看哪天不爽了就转头回去。。。

过几天爽了。。。

再来。。。

我相信你没有这样想 。。。



不知道哪一天早上 。。。

你又会说 。。。

“我们复合了” 。。。

我也相信不会有这一天 。。。



追着追着 。。。

我竟然觉得你只是在玩 。。。

等玩够了就回去了 。。。

我相信你不是这样的 。。。




暧昧 。。。

就是什么也不是 。。。

爽就粘在一起 。。。

不爽就闪人 。。。

我相信我们不是那样的 。。。



可能我太心急 。。。

可能你不想这样快 。。。

但是那感觉 。。。

有时真的很难说服自己 。。。



不是我没安全感 。。。

也不是我太小气 。。。

是 。。。

好像在用缝衣线钓鱼 。。。

不懂几时会断掉 。。。

鱼又掉回水里 。。。



真的好喜欢你。。。

很认真的想和你一起。。。

不想失去你。。。

所以才这样担心 。。。

所以才这样怕 。。。




宝贝 。。。

今天太冲动了 。。。

对不起 。。。

以后会注意的 。。。

现在不想谈没关系 。。。

以后再说 。。。


别再生气了。。。

好吗 ？

恩。。。

好久了啊。。。

都没到那里去了。。。

一切回忆的原点。。。

一开始的考场。。。

一来的约定。。。

一切的开始。。。

外面弹着“立可白”。。。

站在同一个点上。。。

曾经一起站着的地方。。。

伸手抱着同一个空间。。。

实实在在地抱着了一个空间。。。

蒲公英的约定。。。

约定在四方流浪后重新合一。。。

途经风风雨雨。。。

历尽千山万水。。。

从古到今。。。

一羽羽的蒲公英互相约定着。。。

但任谁也知道。。。

那结果如何。。。

从古到今

一球球的蒲公英散开。。。

从来没有人知道。。。

谁与谁在他们的曾经。。。

有过多少的海誓山盟。。。

天使来了。。。

封印一切。。。

带走一切。。。

结束一切。。。

余下的回忆

印在脑海里。。。

死神望着他离去。。。

鼓动着内心沉淀了的记忆。。。

唯美的过去。。。

过去的回忆。。。

都很唯美。。。

咚。。。咚。。。咚。。。

船来啦。。。

是时候上路了。。。

以后不下雨啦。。。

宝贝。。。

我们一起上船好吗？

Leaves and the wind 。。。

Ambiguous 。。。






It's not something that everyone will go through 。。。


It's not as simple as I love you and you love me 。。。


It's not only about you and me 。。。


It's not like switching on and off some funny lights  。。。


But at least 。。。


 It's only between two of them 。。。




Leaves dropped off from the mother tree 。。。


Some of them went straight to the ground 。。。

Some of them embraced by the wind and flew all the way into the sky 。。。


Everyone of them were asking the wind 。。。


Where are we going 。。。


Where are we going 。。。


What are we going to be 。。。


What are we going to be 。。。


When will we reach the place 。。。


When will we reach the place 。。。






The lovely wind kept her one way and still silent 。。。


Quietly embraces them in her warm body 。。。






Their journey were supposed to end at the great sea 。。。


But some of them got lost on the way 。。。


Some of them rot away 。。。


Some of them gave up and follow the path of others 。。。


Ended up on the ground 。。。

It's not just that I love you and you love me 。。。

We're living in a world that people will look on to others than to themselves 。。。

We're standing on the edge of  the cliff 。。。

Me and Him 。。。

We are on both sides of the Libra 。。。

Please don't make me fall 。。。



OK ?



I love you 。。。

Deeply in my heart 。。。

Even though I never try to tell you 。。。



I'm afraid that I will lose 。。。

Lose to whatever thing that I am not sure about 。。。

Lose to that heart that are too pure on you 。。。

I'm afraid 。。。

Undying 。。。

Ah 。。。 

Maybe I feel like down 。。。

Maybe I feel like betrayed 。。。

Maybe I feel like fooled 。。。

Maybe I feel like crying 。。。

But it won't be here 。。。

Where I cry 。。。

Not this time 。。。

Not here 。。。

The leaves flush as the wind blow 。。。

The sand come and go as the waves goes forth and retreat 。。。

The only difference is that a leaf might fall to the place where it used to be 。。。

But a sand will never be on the very same point of the shore anymore 。。。

There goes the difference between love and feelings 。。。

Love come love goes 。。。

It leaves something there 。。。

Feelings appear and vanish 。。。

Nothing remains 。。。

If there is 。。。。

It will be the heart that stays they same 。。。

Enduring the different looking of pain that feelings bring forth 。。。

Exhausted 。。。

枫。。。

为何挽回要赶在冬天来之前。。。


在山腰间飘逸的红雨。。。

随着北风凋零。。。



世俗的看法。。。

道德的束缚。。。

环境的阻碍。。。


使我们有很多的。。。

不能看想。。。

不能说。。。

不能做。。。

不能拥有。。。

不能失去。。。

不能放弃。。。



就连自己。。。

都不能由自己决定。。。



太多的阴差阳错。。。

于是天亮了。。。

太多的箭在弦上。。。

于是发了。。。




很多时候。。。

我们看到的只是冰山一角。。。

但只要这一角断了。。。

冰山恐怕就要倾覆了。。。




所以很多时候。。。

我们只是无奈的接受。。。

继续下去。。。

Dreamy night thinking 。。。

Thoughts bumped into my mind  。。。

Out of a sudden 。。。

Through nights of thinking 。。。

Its not that something happened 。。。

Its just that 。。。

Sometimes I just don't have the feeling 。。。

To engage 。。。

To start a move 。。。

To take off our's shirt 。。。

To stuck my tongue in yours mouth 。。。

And yours into mine 。。。

The temperature is now low 。。。

After been through years of ice age 。。。

Or months 。。。

Or weeks 。。。

Or days 。。。

No decision shall be made 。。。

Unless the temperature has reached  0' K 。。。

The lowest in the universe 。。。

Unless no light can be seen anymore 。。。

Unless nothing can be expected anymore 。。。

Unless the Beloved Ones said it first 。。。

There are always hope for everyone and everything  。。。

If that's really the case we  are having 。。。

Make no haste 。。。

Waiting until the day 。。。

The right time 。。。

The right place 。。。

And the right manner 。。。

For nothing and no one will regret about it 。。。

For so nothing and no one will turn back again 。。。

And for the future of both of us 。。。

And if that day doesn't come 。。。

Just accept it as a gift 。。。

From whatsoever 。。。

For there can hardly be one who will devote so deeply to someone 。。。 

Camina Burana 。。。

The O Fortune 。。。

We shall always bow to the Fate 。。。

To our fortune 。。。

And this time 。。。

What is the thing that the Fate is carrying to me  ?

Let the skies rain 。。。

Starts now 。。。

The rhythm of the Fate 。。。

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这就叫做幸福。。。

The Unspeakable 。。。

When we grow up 。。。

We will have secrets 。。。

Some can be told 。。。

And some can't 。。。


Today 。。。


Nothing was left on us 。。。

I insist that 。。。

Both of us are enjoying 。。。


But 。。。

Is that the only thing we can 。。。

And what are we other than that 。。。


Parallel lines 。。。

No 。。。

Not parallel 。。。


Honey is to be tasted 。。。

Water is to be drank 。。。

Animal is to be slain 。。。

Words are to be spoken 。。。

Women is to be loved 。。。



O, The Great Mother of Earth 。。。

How can there be no sun but a moon 。。。

How can there be no trees but only flowers 。。。

How can there be seas but without fishes 。。。


But O, The Great Mother of Earth 。。。

What happens if the sun doesn't knows the moon 。。。

Trees don't see the flowers 。。。

And seas don't care of fishes within 。。。


O how terrible it is 。。。



窗外雾，迷茫 。。。

吾意， 迷茫 。。。


雾成露， 一气呵成 。。。

吾爱， 一大工程 。。。


一朝见日， 露去 。。。

吾爱， 亦去乎 。。。

去乎 。。。



雾，露，去乎 。。。

始，非世间物 。。。

终，亦非世间物 。。。


吾爱。。。

亦如此乎。。。


非也 。。。

然此时此刻 。。。

此情此景 。。。

实感困惑 。。。


若有朝一日 。。。

情爱不复存 。。。


吾等之爱 。。。

何以长存兮 。。。



若万事皆如有灵兮，成 。。。

情归何处哉 。。。

情归何处 。。。

Where are you going 。。。

Everyone started to ask 。。。

Where are you going to go after this 。。。

Where are you going to go after that 。。。

Are you going to go there  。。。

Are you going to go there 。。。



Sakura 。。。

Spaghetti 。。。

101 。。。

Kangaroo 。。。



Yes 。。。

If only I am able to 。。。




Why you don't follow your XXX and go to XXX 。。。

You should be like your XXX 。。。

Make your effort 。。。

You are XXX 。。。

You just haven't make out your effort 。。。

Go! Follow your will 。。。

Accomplish your dream 。。。

Fight for what you want 。。。



These are all Fucks 。。。

I know what I can 。。。

And also what I can't 。。。



Today 。。。

I know how to write and pronouns 。。。


Envy 。。。


Is the word 。。。


Evvy 。。。





This is an unfair world 。。。

Its obvious 。。。



"My dad said that he will dump me to US 。。。"

"Study Music should go to Europe 。。。"

"Add oil ! Someday you could 。。。"


Words by idiots born in gold and lived in silver 。。。

Damn you all 。。。

Wasted blessing on you all 。。。




This world is really real 。。。

You are nothing if you got nothing 。。。

You will have everything when you have got something 。。。



Just go for what you can 。。。

Do what you can 。。。






Envy 。。。

Grown up 。。。

Again again and again 。。。

The sun rises and rose 。。。

Again again and again 。。。



Again in a lonely dark night 。。。

I sit in front of my computer 。。。

Flip through my memories to look for something worth to write 。。。




Tomorrow ,tomorrow and tomorrow 。。。

Life is just a brief candle 。。。

Tomorrow ,tomorrow, and tomorrow 。。。



Life is full of accident and co-incident 。。。

How if the message was a 24 hours earlier 。。。

How if the she din't fall asleep 。。。

How if I am able to endure 。。。

How if the song wasn't there  。。。

How if I wasn't there 。。。



How 。。。

How 。。。

And how 。。。



Things will be totally different now 。。。






Fate 。。。

Is what we called the unknown existence of something 。。

Who affects the known the most 。。。

Another memory flip through 。。。

Not a very strange thing in life 。。。

We often think of what it was in the past 。。。

What happened in the past 。。。


Maybe it has made us happy 。。。

Or made us sad 。。。

Or just a important but not so important thing 。。。



As my mind travels back in time 。。。

“
In a peaceful morning 。。。

Right before dawn 。。。

The winds blow into my uniform 。。。

The freezing dew gather up on my watery face 。。。


I was standing at the bus stop 。。。

Blaming the bus for being late in my heart 。。。


Later on 。。。


I saw a caravan stopped in front of the bus stop 。。。


A little fairy step down the caravan and another said these words 。。。

{Take care of her ,thank you }


And so the bus came 。。。

”



The end is not important 。。。

It is the beginning 。。。

Which matters 。。。

Dried up 。。。

Look into the mirror 。。。

How wretched I am 。。。


Look into my eyes 。。。

I saw guilty 。。。

I saw neither her nor myself 。。。

I saw us 。。。


At the very sudden my heart is twisted 。。。

Strongly twisted 。。。

But in another way 。。。

I can say that my heart has twisted me well。。。



It's not long since that Day 。。。

The same feeling has come to me again  。。。



I ask the skies 。。。

I ask the earth 。。。

I ask the bread 。。。

I ask the flowers 。。。

I ask the sun 。。。

I ask the moon 。。。



Am I "Medusa" -- like ?



No 。。。

No 。。。

No 。。。

No 。。。

No 。。。

No 。。。



Then what am I ?



Odyssey 。。。

No 。。。


Hades 。。。

No 。。。


Minos 。。。

No 。。。


Zues 。。。

No 。。。



Odyssey would travel for ten years around the world just to get back to his beloved wife 。。。


Hades would allow the man who seeks his wife even until the underworld to leave 。。。


Minos would choose to sacrifice Andromeda in order to save the whole country 。。。


And 。。。


Even though Zeus owns many he has the power to control all 。。。




Then 。。。

What am I 。。。








Ah 。。。

How are the seven sins now 。。。


Its seems that all of us have grown up 。。。

Standing up to face the world using our own ways 。。。



Through so many things 。。。

There are no ways to say it's who's fault 。。。

The end is we all grow 。。。

Thanks to you all 。。。

Voices that cannot be heard 。。。

On the very last day of the creation of the world 。。。

I dwell in the sea of letters 。。。

I searched through the sea and couldn't find a word that suits 。。。


Having a rest on an Island 。。。

At the blink of eye I saw it lying upon the shore 。。。




"我喜欢你” 。。。




No matter what we name it 。。。

The works of thy Hand 。。。

The tricks of thy Evil 。。。


It happened to be there 。。。


Within it I saw the past  。。。

Our past 。。。

How we endure 。。。

How we stand still against the Evil 。。。


So tight we are 。。。

So close we are  。。。

As one we are 。。。



I think we should 。。。

Try harder for each other once more 。。。

Don't give up so easily 。。。



Just  。。。

Love me 。。。

And I will love you 。。。


As the stars to the heaven 。。。

As the birds to the sky 。。。

As the dolphins to the ocean 。。。

As the mountains and As the seas  。。。



This is the Genesis 。。。

And this is the Revelation 。。。

爱情。。。

      这应该算是第一次吧，把部落写到这样“浅显易懂”。可能是因为，觉得有些东西还是简单些比较好。写得复杂些，说穿了只是不想不关事的人看把自己的事看得太彻底。

      常在想，两个人在一起，能够构成分手的原因有什么，能让他们一直走下去的又有什么。经过反复的思索，体育界没带衣服望着天空，半夜睡不着望这天花板，吃饱撑着时茫然地看着电视，得出来的答案都只环绕在一个“心”字上。两人有着同样的一颗心，向着同一个方向，就算遇到了什么阻碍，只要心的方向不变，最终两人还是会走在一起。不管两人互相偏离了多远，他们中间都还有着一颗心将他们牢牢地系在一起，随着时间的流过，这颗心像钓竿一般慢慢地将鱼线收回，最后两人再次站在彼此的身边。

      一切都显得如此美好，但只要两人之间的这颗心在时间的路上不时的有些动摇，偶尔有些松散，这颗心能不能挺到最后就成了一个很大的问题了。两人离得远远的，这颗心慢慢地，一点一滴地把两人越拉越近，但如果两人之间出现了一棵树，而恰好让这颗心撞上，然后碎了呢？重要的心碎了，两人还凭借什么继续走呢？如果一颗心，能使两人像光射向无限远时我们所看到的“相交的平行线”一般的话，当没有了这颗心时，平行线还有可能相交吗？远远的看着，相同的平行线，就是不会再碰面了。

      有人会说，“感情是可以培养的”，“在一起久了就会有感觉了”，“有没有感觉不重要，重要的是适不适合。”。真的是这样吗？感情的培养，不也是出自一颗想更进一步的心吗？日久生情的说法难道就不是建立在有发展意愿的基础上的吗？适不适合比较重要，想问一对没有感情基础的人会适合并且能适应对方吗？

      心碎之后，试图将碎片重新拼起来，让他重新操作，继续像以前那样跳动，像以前那样系着两人，可能吗？答案恐怕很多，但大多数都是否定的吧。一颗心，碎了，就算是交给最最资深的陶匠，将它重新煅烧，上漆，打磨，七层，八层，在心上的某一个小角落上，还是能找到曾经失意破碎的痕迹。在那里，那颗心自私地将所有的记忆埋在隙缝里，装作填补了所有的伤痕。

      陶匠用上了毕生的绝学，细心地打磨，不断地美化，虽然可贵，但他所能做的都只是表面的。一颗心破碎时，内部错综复杂的血管丛也随着一起碎成了无数个小碎片，而这些小碎片洒满了一地后，就消失了。它们去了哪里？这个问题的答案恐怕没有人知道。唯一知道的是，从此以后，不管两人多么的努力想挽救这一切，两人也不可能回到从前了。没有血管的心，不可能再次跳动起来，再次充满活力。

      抛开大树，如果有一天，走在近乎互相平行的人生道路上，有其中一人觉得累了，于是想把那丝细细的线剪断了，那会发生什么事呢？一颗心重重地甩在了地上，碎了，破碎的痛使得另一人一头栽在了地上。一人若无其事地走了，继续寻找另一颗心，继续向另一条平行线靠近。而另一人，也许花了良久的时间，站了起来，拖着一颗破碎的心，一身的烂泥，继续向前走，也去寻找另一颗可靠近的心，也许就这样一直栽在那里了，从那以后不曾在起来过。

      说了这样多，两个人，在一起，分开，都离不开那一颗在一起的心。其实一切都很简单，但是又很复杂。没有一条路上没有树，没有一个人没有想过要剪断那条线，但总有人没撞上那些树，没真正的剪下去。这又是为什么呢？

      这又是为什么呢？

      因为爱。

      很多人问过，到底什么是爱情，什么是爱？

      其实那并不重要。什么是爱情，什么是爱，并不会影响你得到它，也不会使得你失去它。一味的追求爱的解释而最后却没得到它的话，那知道了什么是爱又有什么意义呢？爱情，爱，重要的是我们从中得到了什么，又失去了什么，经历了什么，又学到了什么。曾经紧握的手，放开后，所有的曾经并不会变得毫无意义，反之，它让下一段感情充满更多色彩。

痛，因为肉被硬生生地撕开。。。

痛，因为曾经的信誓旦旦醉入大海。。。

痛，因为曾经互相拥有的不再拥有。。。

你。。。有看到的话，知道我想说的是什么吗？

Since the last time the rain stopped 。。。

I told myself that its time to let go 。。。 

Its too late to hold me back 。。。

Why din't you hold me back when there is still time 。。。 

Why you always like to wait 。。。

Or you just don't know what am I thinking of 。。。

Wait until I gave up 。。。

Wait until I am tired 。。。

Why the time you come are always too late 。。。

Why you will only start to love me when I have already stopped loving you 。。。

Take you time 。。。

Wait until your wounds are healed 。。。

Wait until your heart is cooled down 。。。

Take your time 。。。

 

And at last I want to say 。。。

I'm sorry 。。。

For another time 。。。 

Once again , a sleepy and sleepless night 。。。

For some reason 。。。

Once again we are in united 。。。


Problems are still there to be solved 。。。

Things are still here to be done 。。。


I wanted to ask 。。。

Why ?


Why are we trying to solve a problem that cannot be solved 。。。

And trying to do things that cannot be done 。。。




What I need are easy and simple 。。。

It's always the same 。。。


But it has never been fulfilled 。。。




If everything just keep going against us 。。

Why don't we just give it up 。。。

Maybe it is our fate 。。。



Once again I will say this 。。。

"It's too late to turn my head back "。。。

I really doubt what will happen if I turned away again 。。。



What I want is to be happy 。。。

And peace 。。。




Maybe I will do it again 。。。

Sometimes later 。。。

But not now 。。。


The time has not come 。。。

Just try to be patient and wait 。。。


When the time has come 。。。

Nothing will be left 。。。



I'm sorry my love 。。。

Our fate goes against us 。。。

Not because of us 。。。

But because of the things had came to us 。。。


I'm sorry 。。。

Memories 。。。

Although it has passed 。。。

And all things had been sealed 。。。

In those awaken nights 。。。

Those memories still flows 。。。



How we used to be 。。。

And what we used to have 。。。





And it comes again a night which memories flow 。。。

Sad 。。。

Tired 。。。

Dreams 。。。

Ending 。。。

Leo auf de Libra 。。。




Just like it has jus happened in front of me again 。。。

And again 。。。

And again 。。。



Kisses 。。。

Hugs 。。。

Petting 。。。

Touches 。。。

Interation 。。。



Memories which smithed inside my heart 。。。

So deep 。。。





And 。。。

Now is the time 。。。

To seal it up again 。。。

In my name 。。。

They will never come again 。。。

For I am released 。。。

From the hell  。。。

To the heaven 。。。

Just the end 。。。

Nothing more to say here 。。。

Just to say Goodbye 。。。

And it ends here 。。。



All the memories will be stored here 。。。

All our past is be recorded here 。。。




Come 。。。

Its time to go on 。。。




It's so tricky that I never had mentioned her name her in this blog 。。




As a beautiful ending here 。。。

Lets put our name together for the last time 。。。






In the name of The Rain , The Star and The Bleach 。。。

This is the place 。。。

That the memories of  Yves Hon and Melisa Tieu forever lies 。。。

For no one can interrupt the peace here 。。。

And no one can take away our memories here 。。。



Amen 。。。

Permission 。。。

I've got the Permission 。。。

The Choice is mine now 。。。






When I was young 。。。

I though that once we have found our love ones 。。。

We will never try to have another one 。。。

But it seemed that I was wrong 。。。



I have grown up 。。。

I have found my love ones 。。。

Time goes by 。。。

And of many reasons 。。。

I started to think of leaving 。。。



I wanted to leave all thing behind 。。。

And have a new start 。。。

Not because of not loving 。。。

But because of the problems that came to us 。。。









I ain't a coward 。。。

But I am 。。。



I'm afraid of problems 。。。

I'm afraid of difficulties 。。。

I'm afraid of troubles 。。。


I am neither Hero nor Savior 。。。

I am just a Human Being 。。。




The rain is going to stop soon 。。。

My body was soaked with water 。。。




Even when this rain stops 。。。

The drops remain in me 。。。

But when time passes 。。。

It will dry up 。。。


I know it well enough 。。。







Sorry for the Rain 。。。

I long for your embrace 。。。

But I can no longer wait 。。。

For my legs are shaking 。。。

My hands are freezing 。。。





And my heart 。。。

My heart 。。。


Who knows 。。。

No one ever knows 。。。







Forgive me 。。。

For my selfishness 。。。

For my dishonest for so long 。。。


And for breaking my very own promise 。。。

That I will love you forever 。。。

Be with you 。。。

And will never leave you behind 。。。





I'm sorry 。。。

My Heart 。。。

My Heart 。。。

Softened 。。。

Every time the voice pass comes into my mind 。。。



It is just a simple thing 。。。

But I swallowed it in 。。。

Again and again 。。。

Again and again 。。。



Not much can be say now 。。。



Decision has to be made 。。。

The only difference is of When 。。。

And of How 。。。

Stones in the River 。。。

We are like stones in the river 。。。

Always having crush with each other。。。

The pain deep within makes us glow on the outside 。。。


We are like stones in the river 。。。

Trying our best to defend ourselves 。。。

Even though underneath the hardest Face 。。。

Its the softest Heart 。。。






Oh , how i loved you 。。。

Oh , how i missed you 。。。

You are the apple of my eye 。。。


But of how you ignored me 。。。

And how you neglected me 。。。

And you run away from me 。。。

Saying 。。。


You are the apple of my eye 。。。








What you are to me is what water is to fish 。。。

Even though I can't see you 。。。

Your love embrace me always 。。。


And for what you are to me is what water is to fish 。。。

Even though I am always beside you 。。。

We never are together 。。。

We never were 。。。

We never will 。。。



Is it true 。。。










The rain is going to stop 。。。

Very soon 。。。


Do you really treasure every drop of our rain 。。。

I hardly believe 。。。

But I choose to  。。。




For you are the apple of my eye 。。。

珍惜吗。。。

你说。。。



风向就要变了。。。

雨。。。

可能无法一直下了。。。



要努力地收集雨水。。。



但是。。。

你有吗。。。



Walking on a bumpee road 。。。

Holding my battle staff 。。。

Casting different meaningless magic 。。。


Fire Bolt 。。。

Frost Bolt 。。。

Arcane Charge 。。。


Facing different Demons 。。。

I never stopped having the magic 。。。

"

          Message of Light 。。。

                                                           "


I really wonder 。。。

If I had chosen the School of Necromancy other than the School of Light 。。。

Will "She" ever have a " Message of Light " for me 。。。



For times I realise that I am always the Giver 。。。

And "She" is always  the Reciever 。。。


I am so tired of this 。。。

How much mana i have left 。。。

And how long can I last 。。。

If my support never comes 。。。



I will have to give up 。。。



Not of myself 。。。

Not of "She" 。。。

But of the sake of a uncarried heart 。。。

前方的未来。。。

身处时间的洪流中。。。

唯一不能做的。。。

就是停滞不前。。。

你可以往前。。。

你可以往后。。。

就是不能停着。。。




改变。。。

往往伴随着惊喜。。。

惊喜。。。

也往往伴随着一些副产品。。。




血的代价。。。





时间的洪流中。。。

七大原罪。。。

崩溃了。。。

位置不再重要。。。



世界变大了。。。




神说。。。

他会为我开路。。。


新月两次了。。。





狼与蝙蝠的血液在血管中。。。

挣扎。。。



狼人。。。

吸血鬼。。。


终究还是会变。。。

吧。。。


还是。。。

会有奇迹。。。



自体免疫能力。。。

病毒无法入侵。。。

得以保持人身。。。



人。。。

真是伟大。。。




伟大的潘金莲。。。

伟大。。。

视而不见最贴切。。。





We grow when we gets hurt。。。

And we hurt people as we grow。。。

That's the way the world is。。。




伟大潘金莲。。。

Be mature。。。

Its so funny seeing u hanging around。。。

Going nowhere doing nothing but act like an idiot。。。




For too long I have not heard these three complicated word。。。

Not of the word itself。。。

But of the memory within。。。


"GOH　SIEW   LING "

And so it comes...

For so long I've been waiting...

And now...

The time has come for me to choose...

To make a decision...



I am now standing in font of a T junction ...

With neither left or right also another T junction in the end...



It is clear that one of them is better...

And I know which one is better...

At least for now...



As a right-hand writer...

I used to choose left for everything as for direction...




The powerful head of the Seven Sin...

The Pride will abandon me...

If  the choice is left...

And things goes hard...


But indeed...

It leads to a great fortune...




The appears deep in my flesh...

My spirit...

My soul...

My heart...

Everything of myself...

Will abandon me...

If the choice is right...



For some reason...

It leads to a fortune full of happiness....



But it will never be the best choice,,,

For me...

For us...






Every story begins with a beginning...

And ends with a ending...



We who started our story...

Will end it as a purpose...



And then another story begins...

Somewhere and someday around the world...




"Will we ever be friends again?"...

"No one ever knows..."...

"Could we?"...

"No,Maybe Not"...

"But why?"...

"Because it hurts."...



Deep inside the heart of every single man...

There is a place for every women they had ever loved...

Once the place is there...

It will never disappear...

Even though were much illustrated by time...

 And become smaller and smaller...

Thinner and thinner...

It will never disappear...

It will never be gone...



Until the end of the road...

When its time to let go...

And to die...


Love includes respect...

And love includes sacrifices...

And so it be...





I Love You...

In my heart...

There will always be a place for you...





Even if that in the end...


Pride has abandon me...


And someones else took over her place...

啊。。。

啊。。。

啊。。。

啊。。。




最近的烂桃花。。。

越来越烂了。。。

烂到有点怕。。。




闷。。。







七大原罪。。。

的位子出现了改变。。。

有人上了。。。

有人下了。。。

有人不再是了。。。

原罪。。。

各自带着不同的称号。。。

继续弥留在心中。。。




色欲。。。


走了。。。



强欲。。。


远了。。。



愤怒。。。 

更深了。。。



会不会有人能取代。。。

那最强大的。。。

傲慢呢。。。



会吧。。。

可能会吧。。。








会吗？


我的傲慢。。。


会吗？

新年假期。。。

今年的新年。。。

好寂寞啊。。。

真的。。。


真希望有人陪。。。

看戏。。。

吃饭。。。

走街。。。

手牵手。。。

搂着。。。



有时候。。。

一些希望。。。

其实是非常简单的。。。

可很多时候。。。

这样简单的事。。。

却不曾有过。。。




朋友。。。

说到底。。。

也只是朋友。。。

能力有限。。。

能做的。。。

只有这样多。。。

到最后。。。

还是要自己来。。。




出游的一天。。。

船下。。。

金鱼成对的游过来。。。

突然心里一阵刺痛。。。

虽然那只是曾经有过的。。。

不成熟。。。

又多余的。。。

一种感情。。。

但它。。。

在那一瞬间。。。

也确确实实地。。。

轻轻的刺到了。。。

心上脆弱的一点。。。




回过头想想。。。

啊。。。

我们都长大了。。。

对吧。。。



我们都有自己的路。。。




过去的。。。

以前的。。。

就过去吧。。。



从今以后。。。

就让它在时间的洪流里。。。

慢慢地由碎片。。。

化为粉末吧。。。

无谓的新年。。。

I just want to have a peaceful Chinese New Year...

What's the point to have a bunch of people that you don't even met before...

To come to your house on Chinese New Year...

Or the day before...


Why don't we just stay at home and have our own time...

It's such a  "brilliant" idea to have this plan...

Calling a bunch of people that I dun know to come just for eating...



Looking at others blog...

Sometimes will have such kind of thinking...

"Why are they so sensitive..."

About everything...




If I am given three wishes...

First will be "peace"...

Second will be "love"...

And the third will be "dream"...



Writing about nonsense...


许XX。。。

陈美云。。。

李凯欣。。。

张宝欣。。。

吴秀玲。。。

林安琪。。。

李XX。。。


七个女生。。。

有着不同的意义。。。


Gluttony。。。

Sloth。。。

Envy。。。

Pride。。。

Lust。。。

Greed。。。

Envy。。。

Wrath。。。


暴食。。。

怠惰。。。

嫉妒。。。

傲慢。。。

色欲。。。

强欲。。。

愤怒。。。

A Boring Night

The one who provides sperms in order to produce me has came back...

He is such a junk...

In my eyes...

Same as me...

Sometimes only...




I often win...

Or draw...




And he is leaving this friday...

Hurray!!!


For times I found that the only reason I am still calling him "Father"...

Is "Money" I guest...

I feel like can't find any other reason for it...


It sounds cruel ...

But its true for me...



For so long ...

I never come out with a new post...



Thoughts often flash through my mind...

I always think that I would like to write them down...

But when i get back to my house and sit infront of my computer...

All of them suddenly disappeared...



I am runing out of time...

For everything...

Not including about my life of course...